holding back..

if you've experienced pain, you would know what i feel..

sure, life seems better now..

all you feel like doing is smiling & laughing..

but at the back of your head,

you know this sounds too good to be true..

your heart is telling you, no, you're going to fast..

you've got to hold back..and be careful...

you sure dont wanna stumble and fall again..

you just couldnt go through all the tears, all the heartaches again..

no, not AGAIN...

but this small part of your heart is also telling you to give yourself a chance..

a chance to experience happiness...

a chance to see the good in other people...

here i am asking myself..is it ok to feel this way?

is this the right time to explore what's out there again?

or should i just wait a lil longer..

make sure i've fully recovered, then only give myself a chance..

hm..i dunno..holding back might lead to losing a chance rite?

and the fact that i've actually "melted" doesnt help one bit *blush*

what should i do..hold back..@ give it a shot? *winks*