work, work, work...

im swamped with loads of work AGAIN.. just had my jurisprudence test today..1 down, 1 more test to go before raya break - public international law (pil) test this sunday..yup, thats right! SUNDAY people! to make my life even more "interesting", i'll have 2hrs of replacement class rite after the test..what a lurvely way to spend my sunday huh?*sigh* i also need to squeeze in my time to prepare for my pil presentation on wedn.. AND my legal writing for professional practice which is due on the 26th..but since im heading back home on the 24th, guess i just have to make sure i get it done before wedn.. thats 4 days away! im suffocating oredi..help! i just cant wait to get all these over and done with.. i just wanna go home, have iftar with my family and get ready for Eid..!

I'm falling and I'm terrified

as much as i've tried to withhold myself, i think im falling.. not a deep fall, but a fall indeed..and this scares me..i'm caught in between - guarding myself and taking a risk.. im terrified of the things im not aware of.. im afraid that i'll get crushed.. im worried of falling hard, falling too deep .. i never knew that i could be terrified over such thing..im myself surprised at my own reaction..sure, people say its normal to fall, it is unavoidable sometimes..but still, i.am.scared!! to the extent that i cried..what's happening to me?? i've never imagined that i would turn out to be like this.. afraid of taking chances.. when things are doing great, this voice inside my head keep on telling me, "dee, all these sound too good to be true..step back a lil.. u cant afford to let urself get hurt..not again.." i guess its good that im still able to keep my feet on the ground, though i feel like floating.. but past experiences taught me a lot.. im constantly holding myself back.. i hope im doing the right thing..oh i dunno *sigh

Iftar With Friends

~former residents of 5th College, UPM~
fr left: Fira, Me, Amar, Jinggo, Fidi, Amy, Syameil & Abg Hairin

Last Sunday, I managed to gather a couple of my former collegemates from UPM for buka puasa @ Eden Village, Chulan Square. Amar was da one who suggested we have it that weekend since he would be in KL. Kinda sedey coz tak ramai sgt yg could make it..especially da gurls.. ape2 pn, I had loads of fun.. dah lame tak gelak with dis guyz.. Thank u all for coming, especially Aufa & Mr. F (tho they're not fr K5, they were kinda enuff to accept my invitations)! We should make this an annual event:)

Fidi & his gurls

With Aufa, my coursemate in UIA.. Thanks for letting me drag u along dear

~afta 1st round of food~

~me, Mr. F & Amy~

Rezeki Ramadhan..

As I got out of my Professional Practice class yesterday, I realized there was a missed call on my phone..oh shoot, it was the Securities Commission again! this is the second time they called while i was in class..what should i do?the number was the SC's general line..I have no idea who to refer to if I call them back.. talked to a few friends and my Abah..they all asked my to call SC back.. so after Friday prayers, gathered up all my courage and gave them a call.. while i was on the line, trying to trace which officer actually made that call, my phone was ringing.. its the SC ! :) and guess what? SC is giving me a conditional job offer !!:) meaning, subject to my final results, i actually have a job waiting! well, two jobs actually if i were to count TM, my sponsor.. this is soo unexpected.. frankly, i didnt think i had much of a chance with SC after i told them im a TM scholar.. the lady who interviewed me a month ago said SC doesnt have an open policy in "snatching" away other organizations' scholars.. so at that moment, i thought..there goes my chance.. seriously, I.DID.NOT.EXPECT. this at all.. my rezeki i guess.. ALHAMDULILLAH :) i cant stop smiling since yesterday..and dunno how to explain how grateful i am.. for those who know how hard it was for me to get into law school, 3 long years of waiting (and crying of course), you would understand what this means to me.. i believe this is the reward for not giving up, for having faith in HIM..alhamdulillah :)

busiest time of the semester..

after almost a week facing my laptop just to complete drafting for Civil Procedure (CP for short), i finally managed to complete 90% of the work.. my drafting exercise is basically to prepare relevant documents to be filed in court for an accident case.. Since my "client" was served a summons to appear in court for negligent driving, i have to prepare :
i) notice of appearance - to show that my client will appear in court to defend herself against the claims made by the plaintiff

ii) statement of defence + counter-claims against the plaintiff

iii) documentary evidence such as police report, medical report (in which i had to pretend to be a doctor for awhile :P ), several letters etc

as stressful as it was, i actually kinda enjoyed doin the work.. this is real legal stuff in which u cant jez simply apply the law, but u have to think and put little pieces together to form a solid case for ur client.. challenging i must say but still not the branch of law im opting for once i graduate..hehe.. im still eager to go into corporate law :P

i still have tonnes of other things to do.. legal opinion for Professional Practice, presentation for Methods of Da'wah class, an Evidence test coming up on wednesday, followed by Public International Law presentation+submission, and..Criminal Procedure test.. phew..a lot huh? :p

rase macam nak pengsan pun ade..but hey, welcome to final year..haha just a few more months and i'll be done with all these..the few "dramas" which i had to face this past week made things tougher.. but thanks to wonderful friends, i got through it..

came friday, i was in better mood.. Kak Emy, from Petronas took me out for buka puasa buffet at Eden.. met Kak Su and Sophian.. had such a great discussion with them.. from Malaysian political scenario(which include the "is he or is he not?" issue..lol) to my jodoh theory + "fated"..haha glad i didnt feel that awkward hanging out with these professionals and could actually blend in:)

and just now, buka puase at Tasha's place.. yummy food and had fun with the gurls..managed to get my mind off the loooong list of things to do for awhile..

what's even better,got myself some "chocs from Singapore" !!! :D courtesy of MR. F *winks* the dark belgian choc with no added sugar suits my taste perfectly..




thanks for being so thoughtful yea?now, im a lil hyper n its oredi 2am! should just stop here then..:)

Ramadhan 2008

Alhamdulillah, Ramadhan is back once again.. Muslims all over the world begin to perform the third pillar of Islam - fasting, starting today.. Ramadhan this year is rather different for my family and I.. For one, Acik (my baby bro, Khairul Syazwan) is not home with us to welcome the first day of Ramadhan.. He's away in UiTM Perak.. I feel sad knowing he only had a bowl of Maggi for his first Sahur.. Knowing Acik, who could actually eat 2 plates full of rice even for Sahur, that must be tough on him!hehe.. But I'm sure it must be harder on Ma, not seeing all her children for Sahur and Buka Puasa..

It is during this Ramadhan as well, the baby of the family aka my only sis, Iya ( Noorul Amalia) will be sitting for her UPSR.. 9th September to be exact.. Yesterday she was already complaining about having to face such a big exam during fasting month. She's worried that the grumbling tummy will disturb her concentration.. Yeah rite Iya! :P You'll get more barakah la my dear sis..

Errm.. this Ramadhan shall also be very hard for my dear aunt, Che Ani and her three daughters - Kak Long, Kak Na and Baby.. the first Ramadhan without a husband and a father.. My uncle passed away recently in Madina upon arrival in his journey for Umrah.. Had the chance to meet Che Ani 2 days ago when she came along to pick me at the airport..I cant even look at her eyes.. Sadness and loneliness were written all over her face.. She's not her usual self anymore.. Of course not Dee, her husband of almost 20 years is no longer here:( She's left all alone to bring up their 3 daughters without any man in the house.. May Allah give her all the strength that she needs...Be strong Che Ani..

~ che ani and i during che aya's wedding~

this Ramadhan shall also be a challenge to my classmate back in form 5 @ Bkt Mertajam High School, Nadya Afifa.. she just lost her dear father a few months back due to kidney cancer.. She's one strong lady, that I know for sure.. Take good care of ur mom and urself k Nad? *hugs*

looking at what my aunt and friend have to go through, i feel so stupid for complaining and whining about my so-called "misery".. what i've lost is NOTHING compared to what they are going through.. their loss are far worse than mine.. i should be grateful that i still have those who are very important to me in this world - my parents, my family, my friends.. :)

Ramadhan al-Mubarak to all..May we always be blessed with His hidayah thorughout this holy month..Amin :)