Sayonara 2008

2008...
a year which i was anxiously waiting for since my diploma years.. why? hm.. no special reason really, just lurve the number 2-0-0-8 :) and if u put together with my birth date, it becomes --> 08-02-08 --> cantik kan?hehe

i've always wished something good would happen to me in 2008.. but my, was i wrong :S
it started out awful.. on the first day itself, i was already crying my eyes out.. someone i cared about..overeacted over some stuff and ended up saying the most despicable things to me.. labelling me with words you dont ever want to hear.. mcm tak percaya but yup, it came from the person i cared most about.. all thanks to Kak Emy, i survived the day..

then it got better, some things were fixed.. and things seemed to fall in the right place.. had the best birthday in years.. but that happiness didnt last long.. :,(

i lost someone dear, a bestfriend, a confidant.. I dunno how i made it throught the following months.. i was broken, angry, numb, bitter,torn apart - all at the same time.. tears were like my best friend.. it sounds cheesy i know.. but only those who have lost their first love would understand what i went through.. no kidding.. i never thought i could smiled again.. but Allah is indeed Maha Penyayang.. with supports from friends, i was able to pick myself up, and stand up again alhamdulillah..:)

all in all, 2008 was not what i expected at all.. ye la kan, a year which i've spent feeling depressed and hopeless most of the time.. not to say nothing good ever happened.. ader la a few things which made me smiled, namely getting in touch with long lost friends, that "conditional" offer from SC (note the word conditional yea ppl.hehe), became closer with my coursemates:) thats good enough i guess..kene bersyukur after all.hehe

so time to bid goodbye 2008 and all the painful memories that came with it..huhu
WELCOME 2009 :)

p/s: Mr. Cupid dear, stop neglecting me and start doing ur job pleeeasse.. thats a pretty please with the cherry on top *winks*

hmm...

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
When you're Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

SONG : Gotta be somebody - Nickelback

*note : this is what i tell myself everyday, especially when friends and family ask me the NO-NO question - "bila nak kawin?" i'm no God people.. only He can answer that for me.. *sigh*

Implementation of Hudud Law - Understand Before Rejecting

what i'm about to say might be sensitive to others, some might even think i'm a strong follower of a certain political group.. but allow me clarify a few things first.. i'm NOT into politics.i firmly believe that politic itself is dirty, let alone the people who are involved in it.i'm writing this because i believe i have the duty to give a clearer picture of Islamic criminal law(ICL) and how it works. i'm no expert in it, but as a law student at an Islamic university, and most importantly as a Muslim, i'm proud to say that i do have a basic understanding on the fundamentals of ICL.

it bothers me to see politicians, both Muslims(SAD!) and non-Muslims, openly giving their opinions on how Hudud cannot be implemented in our multi-racial/multi-religion Malaysia.but excuse me dear politicians, do you even know how to execute hudud law?most importantly,do u even know what are hudud offences? have you people even thought of the rationale behind public amputation @ whipping? sadly, NO! without having much or any understanding at all on the system, you're labelling ICL as barbaric, draconian.. suka hati je kan?urgh it makes me so mad!

let me just share some very basic concept and principles of ICL.under Islamic law, criminal offences can be divided into 3 main categories : -

- Hudud offences = wrongs committed against the right of Allah
examples : murtad (apostacy), zina (illicit intercourse),
sariqah (theft), hirabah (armed robbery + some jurists
consider rape to fall under hirabah as well), shurb
al-khamr (drinking wine)

- Qisas offences = wrongs committed against the right of another man
examples : murder, causing grievous hurt


- Ta'zir offences = offences which do not fall in either categories above and determined by the government @ State


the punishment for Hudud and Qisas offences are expressly prescribed in the Quran.lets take the most controversial example, punishment for the offence of theft - amputation of hand. yes, at a glance the punishment seems very severe, too harsh. thats what i thought too, but BEFORE i studied ICL.now i can actually accept it. it's severe for a reason - to prevent the offender from repeating the same offence and it serves as a warning to the public not to commit the same act. just imagine having to watch an accused who has been proven to steal, being amputated right in front of our eyes.. seeing the agony in the offender's face.. do u think anyone out there dares to commit the same act??? just answer truthfully.. no rite? i doubt there's a single man out there who would have the b*lls to even think of trying to commit theft.. thats the beauty of the imposition of such harsh punishment. it's to deter the offence once and for all..

note however, this punishment is not imposed on just any act of taking the property of others. this is where the public are often confused.no, amputation of hand will not be imposed on a kid stealing a pencil from his classmate nor will a homeless person stealing bread from a grocery shop. Islam prescribes very specific definition of theft. the act of stealing must be done SECRETLY, not openly..
the stolen property must be of certain amount and the intention must be to deprive the victim over the possession of the property.. not only that, the standard of burden of proof = BEYOND ANY SHADOW OF DOUBT. unlike the requirement in civil courts = beyond any reasonable doubt, the burden of proof in establishing Hudud offences is much higher.. in other words, it is VERY difficult to prove that an accused has committed theft, let alone to execute the punishment.. do u now see how ICL is beautifully arranged? the idea of having severe punishment is reconciled with the fact that to prove a Hudud case is very hard. see people..if only we could stop judging.. try to see the big picture behind everything.. ni tak, sebut je Islam and Hudud, semua nak menggelabah.. come on la people.. Allah is Most-Knowing.. He is our Creator after all.. He would know what can be done, what cannot be done.. He is 'Adil.. He would never impose upon us anything that is beyond our capabilities.. if He wants us to apply ICL, then we should.. stop questioning.. it'd suit us all- Muslims or non-Muslims, insyaAllah...

economic recession + graduation = disaster

the world economic crisis has been the highlight of media coverage these past few months.. frankly speaking, i didnt really pay that much attention to it since i thought Malaysian economy is still ok and all, or has yet to be affected by it.. unfortunately, i was wrong. after reading today's newspaper reports, i am now terrified.. more than 4000 workers are to be retrenched.. and i bet there will be a whole lot more to come.. this is so scary! its like having the same nightmare ('97-98 crisis) all over again! yikes!

why am i freaking out? i'm GRADUATING in four months time(insyaAllah) and that means this is the most crucial time of all to do job-hunting.. now after realizing how bad the state of our economy is, im doubting the possibility of finding any job opportunities! in other words, i'm actually and directly affected by the recession.. erk.. aiyayay.. finishing law school a.s.a.p does not seem all that appealing anymore *sigh* what am i to do?? chambering?? no please no.. i do not want to go through that 9 months of ordeal.. a.k.a 9 months of self-degrading experience.. tak nak!i dont wanna end up crying everyday!huhu.. camane ni?hm.. i've yet to hear from Petronas application.. isk.. scarynyer..

what is it with men??!

there's this thing with me, i cringe at the sight of a guy carrying his gf's handbag in public..uurrggh sick!! dude, i know you're trying to be a gentleman and all, but come on, there are soooooooooo many other ways of showing that ok.. to me, the whole act of helping the gf to carry the handbag is equal to the fact the gf is DOMINATING the guy.. :P yes, guys are suppose to protect the safety of their gfs, but handbags??puhleez, thats soo not the way!!

the other day, i came to know that a guy friend of mine who was recently engaged, "ended" a friendship with one of his close girl friend because the fiance asked him to do so.. errkk?? how dumb is that??! tau la sayang tunang kan, but do you have to ditch an old friend? dude, dont you have a mind of your own? think and take control lar.. it's so sad to see a MAN who suddenly lose control of his life over a woman, just like that.. and it's embarassing for me as a woman, to know that another woman can be that selfish and insecure.. so what if he remains in touch with his old friend? dont you have guy friends yourself?dont you wanna be able to still keep in touch with them even after you get married? just think about it, even if your boyfriend or fiance or husband still keep in touch with their girl friends whom they've known long before they know you, that would not change the fact that they still love you.. stop being so insecure ! memalukan je ok.. i couldnt help but shudder at the thought of a friendship that has to come to an end because someone's being overly paranoid and insecure.. it's not worth it people.. men, be in control please :p

my lil darlings..

my lil cousins who have been keeping me busy this hols..



~Baby Jasmin~


~Mek Na- Lil Sis, Iya - Baby Kimora~

~Ishmel - Amirul - Irfan~

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life has been very stagnant these past couple of days.. mundane in fact.. there's nothing new nor exciting to look up for.. sure i'm enjoying my holidays.. i still cant get enuff of doing absolutely nothing.. but to a certain extent, im beginning to question myself, is this all there is to my life? the only thing that i look forward to is to finish up my degree, and embark on a career by the end of April next year.. other than that, n-o-t-h-i-n-g.. sad isnt it? this state of "nothingness" is driving me nuts.. i dont even know what im feeling! thats how bad it is.. i wish im at least aware of my emotions..i guess the only word that could describe what i feel rite now is numb.. yup, numb.. *sigh*