the comfort in you

when i have a bad day, i put down all my guard and from you i seek comfort.. i know im not supposed to do that, but i just couldnt help myself.. part of me is ever so grateful u actually picked up the phone that nite.. i dont mean to be dependent on you, not anymore that is.. but who am i kidding? if there's anyone that could calm me down.. or understand without me saying a word, it is you.. just by the way i say hello, u would know that something is bugging me.. u would know i need to talk.. and that very nite my dear, all i wanted was someone to hear me whine and merengek.. im so silly kan? but u listened anyway.. things that u say that nite, surprised me, really.. i didnt expect u to remember some of the stuff.. now that we're worlds apart.. but i realized, we share this great bond.. we can finish off each other's sentences.. i can tell when u're smirking.. u know when im blushing.. even on the phone! and it makes me wonder, is it the same with her? a voice inside my head tells me..u dont even realize all these.. coz if do, u' d probably still be here by my side.. but u're not.. u're building up a future with someone else.. someone u just met :( God, when will i ever find someone that i can have same level of understanding?the same bond.. yes, im weak, im lame.. but i cant stop myself.. and i dont want to put up a strong face.. i dont want to pretend.. i long for a companion.. i long for someone to just be there for me.. someone who i can snuggle up to at nite and hear me rant.. where is he Ya Allah? :(