it's been six months..

now,before i even begin with dis entry, i need to make a note to those who might read dis and to myself, that i am not dwelling on things..i am fine.. its just that i feel like putting these thoughts into words..share it with those who care enough to read.. nothing more, nothing less..

believe it or not, it has been six months..half a year.. i dunno how i got through these months, but hey im still standing :) and i can even smile too.hehe tears, questioning, wondering, feeling so weak..im done with all that.. sure, da pain is still there alrite..but im no longer sad.. bitter?yes, at times..haha not because of what happened, but because i allow myself to be placed in such a situation..i could see the signs all along, but i never had the guts to walk off..i was way to complacent with the way things were that i was, in a way, living in a state of denial.. i should've make a move long time ago..but nope, i was being stubborn, wanted things to work out so bad, not willing to quit.. and here i am, having to learn things the hard way.. oh well, shit happens kan?hehe

things are better now(except for da tonnes of school work of course!).. i guess i've managed to swallow everything..its no longer stuck in my throat.. time is da best medicine people:) oh yea, distraction helps too.. and definitely loads of support from friends and family.. im ever so grateful to have so many friends who were always there to hear me out.. they picked me up and helped me stand up again.. they wiped away these tears, made me smile & laugh my head off, and most importantly, they made me feel good about myself again.. to Mazlina, Najia, Suraya, Abg Hairin, Kak Julia, Kak Emy, Kak Maz, Kak Hasni, Yan, Jasma, Mr. F, Elyna, Aufa, Maryam, Ina, Mun, Tasha, Adora, Shiykin, Che Wan, Azeem.. may Allah bless all you wonderful people always.. you guyz have given me so much strength.. caaayunkkk korang!! *hugs* dis is me afta six months.. i hope i'll be much better in times to come..:)