again and again..

i've allowed myself to place my trust in you again.. i thought u were real..but i guess u were just using me.. how stupid of me.. again and again, im left with this excruciating pain.. and i feel betrayed this time.. i never knew a human being, Allah's most special creature, being granted a HEART, could do anything like this.. do you even know what you're doing? you're lying to yourself, you've obviously fooled me.. and guess what, you've also betrayed that other person.. stop with all these acts.. havent you done enough? you're so not the person you think you are.. take a look at that mirror and ask yourself what you have done.. im amazed that you dont feel a tinge of guilt *sigh* Allah's fair.. today might be your day.. i just hope you realize what you're doing.. im beyond words now.. it hurts so bad that i cant shed a single tear.. i wish i could, so i can just get rid of this feeling.. oh well, i have HIM.. HE's listening.. HE's witnessing all these.. HE knows.. please give me the strength.. please..