To : YOU

if you could see this huge hole inside my chest, if you could at least feel half the pain im feeling..

if only.. but no, u're too engrossed in your new life.. i bet u couldnt be bothered.. the pain is back.. i thought tonnes of work will push it away, but i was wrong.. it's still lingering at the same place.. causing this excruciating pain inside my chest.. words cant describe it.. i wish ponstan could get rid of it..but no, no..

lately, im been having second thought about the decision i made with u.. now, im doubting myself.. is this what i really want? one thing for sure, i know what's in my head is NOT what's in my heart.. my heart wants you..my head says no..

people say you cant have everything u want.. what if both things mean a lot to me? *sigh*